One of the reasons I wanted to start this blog was to explore and learn more about the things I love. Up till now I have opted to please others more than myself but last year I began realising that I am of no use to anyone if I don’t exist.
It’s easy to stop existing if you try hard enough and I found myself not knowing whether I wanted coffee or tea, toast or cereal. Simple choices seemed so hard and I would rather do whatever everyone else was doing. I rarely felt joy over my own choices. When I was on my own, I felt empty.
I have been working to grow beyond that place and find within myself what I really want.
I’ve thought a lot about what makes me smile. I remember times when all I would do is write poetry. I remember taking photographs of absolutely everything. I have had moments where nothing brought me more happiness than watching the sun rise or studying the patterns of a leaf.
I sat down the other day and wrote a page of things that I love to do or experience. I’m looking forward to going through that list and drawing inspiration and joy from each of those things.
Who knows, I might even find new things to love.
So here’s to finding more joy and exploring my loves.
– Heidi x